Happy New Year!
GoodbyeGal
…or something like that.
I woke up this morning quite emo and filled with fearful thoughts of the year(s) ahead. I wish I could put myself in the frame of mind that today is just another day, but I am feeling very overwhelmed by the pressures of Ringing in the New Year as a happy occasion when on the insides I’m not all that happy.
Last night I had a 3rd date with Simon. He has been asking me to get together for weeks, but I just haven’t been into it. I ended up accepting and invited him to join me and some other friends for dinner. I figured if he really wanted to see me he’d do what ever I wanted to do and that he did.
It was a great time, he fit right in and I think we all had fun, but I just wasn’t into it. I tried to play the role of good date and make him feel wanted. I even gave him a few kisses, which I knew he had been greatly looking forward to since our last date, but they lacked even the slightest hint of passion and pleasure for me.
Scientifically Simon is a perfect match for me – he is handsome, has a great sense of humor, fun personality, good dresser, owns his own home, has a good job and a very nice car… just to name a few of my minimum requirements. So why is it I am so uninterested?
The truth is I am just simply not interested in dating anyone right now; I’m not even interested in a casual encounter with The Boy or Magnum despite their efforts to maintain relationships of that nature with me. A few days ago I proclaimed I was jumping back into the dating pool, but that ambition fled quickly and I have no desire to find it again any time soon. This lack of interest happens from time to time and I am sure that once we get over this New Year hump I will start feeling the desire to be social once again…at least I am hoping so.
In closing this post and this crummy year I will say that I am looking forward to 2010 as a year of healing, happiness and embracing my independence. Oh and if Flirty office guy should decide that he is madly in love with me that would be great too!
I thank you, readers, for all your support over this past year on behalf of SingelGal and myself and for your continued friendship and support in the coming year. May 2010 be the year that kicks all other year’s asses!
*cheers*
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New Years always seem like a perfect time to “start over” (even though we know we could really do that at any point if we’d wanted to). Celebrate some of the really important achievements in your life – disconnecting from your Ex and getting your new place. Continue to work on moving forward with working toward the life YOU want to lead. Your 2010 will do that for you.
I still feel this really good vibe about “Simon”. I know you shouldn’t string him along but if you really think it’s YOU and not HIM, I’d say continue to consider him … for a little while longer.
I love you!
XOXO
SG
The year that kicks other year’s asses – LOVE THAT!!!! And I hope flirty guy is madly in love with you!! CHEERS!!!