Cleaning out Closets

Random Thoughts from GoodbyeGal

I spent the last few days cleaning out my closets, bagging up clothing for donation and tossing stuff that was just tossed in there to get it out of sight. I even found a few things I had forgotten I had. I feel a little bit of relief, yet I look around and still see so much that needs to be sorted and dealt with.

I deal with my emotions in the same manner. I stick them away, out of sight and close the door and think…I’ll deal with those later. The funny thing with emotions is that sometimes they creep out on their own and often at times you least expect.

I managed to get through this clean out with minimal emotional break downs, but I also avoided many of the areas I knew would trigger feelings and complicate the clean out.

There is still so much to be sorted and dealt with, but I’ve decided that much of it should be done with Ex’s assistance…Especially since there is a lot of heavy lifting to be done.

I know it will be harder with Ex and I am sure there will be a lot of resistance and buckets of tears shed, but I also feel like I need that. I need to let these emotions out that I have stored in my soul for years upon years….and I need for him to see that my decision to split our lives is not all happiness and excitement…it’s heartache and fear and sorrow.

First thing early Monday morning
I’m gonna pick my tears away
Got no cause to look back
I’m lookin’ for me a better day
You see the thing ’bout love
Is that it’s not enough
If the only thing it brings you is pain
There comes a time when we could all make a change

Just let go
And let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Everything’s gonna work out right,
Ya know
Let go, and let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Just let go

“Let it Flow” – Toni Braxton

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